Friday, July 31, 2009

What this blog is actually for.

Yup... my friends who care to view it, which isn't many as best I can tell, but if they want to know what is going on with me, I live my life straight up, my regrets are few. My musings on life are a way to work things out to myself. It's also a way that I can have a look back see what I was doing or feeling at a certain time. Yup friends and neighbors, come on in and have a look. But as far as I can tell, there are not a lot of people wandering into this corner of cyber space. One time, a while back, when the crazy old redneck swung an axe at me, I threw it out on Face book that people should read this story, and if you don't know it, let me now link that back, especially since that other biker recently was SHOT at here in Asheville. The bullet cracked the mans helmet, literally an inch from death. The circumstances around that one are totally insane.

for that little trip down my memory lack of bike lane.
Other than that, I don't call attention to my blog, never have, never will. Also if there is something the least bit sensitive, names are left off. So, yup, this blog is for me. I look back and see what I have going on, what I was thinking, what ever. But it won't ever be a place for me to bash specific people at specific times in plain print, well, not people I know personally. Presidents, red necks with axes, people in the news, sure. If I have taken the time to get to know someone, I do care about them. I don't mean them harm.

Thursday, July 30, 2009

When you are indifferent

Well, I am in a really laid back state of mind these days. I started to get into a relationship, and then I just kinda lolly gagged around and that ran her off. I just wanted to hang out and enjoy some womanly company, I wasn't trying to really make the relationship go anywhere yet, just let it breath. Meanwhile I think she was holding her breath. People are strange. All of us. I am, she is, everything is. I suppose when I stumble across somebody that I can't stand to not be around I suppose I'll put effort into it. I have done it before, I'll do it again. Some day. It's just not happening now. This last little thing was an exercise in indifference. Id like to think that if I do meet some one that I can't resist that I'll be able to summon up enough of what I just did to keep everyone in the right spot in terms of interest and power. A relationship is sustained in that way, both people staying interested, the give and take of control. And then people giving each other what they need, but not always. That is the fascinating thing about human nature.

Friday, July 10, 2009

Crazy little life

As I sit here and ponder what I am going to do with myself this weekend I am quite happy. I have these cool additions to my life and while Asheville Triathlon is bearing down on me I feel like I am a little bit ahead of where I was last year. Hopefully I can get some sleep in the days and hours leading up to it. Food is taken care of, awards and shirts are coming together, All I need to do is the normal pre-triathlon "stuff" at this point. I might even have some time to relax and breath a bit. My new hobby of getting on the river is something that I am about to go do again this afternoon. Since I basically refuse to get into a gym I must paddle to work my arms out. A little run in bent creek and then some flat water paddling upstream until my arms fall off and then just turn around and come back. good times, good times.